"You'll know when the moment's right."
How though?
It baffles me when I hear this because I don't know if I've been aware enough to think: "this is it."
Have you?
It's amazing and beautiful to hear stories of people knowing that they've found love, reached a peak of their life, made a decision they're a million percent sure about.
But I don't think I've had that moment of certainty.
I'm the type of person who either plans everything to the dot, and yet, I feel that everything is out of my reach to control. It's a messy way of thinking and feeling. So at times when I feel as if I'm almost there - just by the finish line of whatever I'm doing - it isn't enough. I put my time, care, and passion to what I do, and I still feel like something's missing.
So when will there be a moment in my life of - preparation, anxiety, and fear - will I feel right?
After all the wrong turns and falling down will something feel like a final piece is fitting?
It's been hard. The things I've learned in life has made it so easy to forget what happiness is and was.
Happiness isn't the same anymore.
Sadness isn't the same anymore.
When will there be a time of feeling that this - is "just right"?
When will I know?
