Mushed Thingy Mabob of a Mess ~Part 1

Ayooooo!

Hey guyysssss ~
Oh geez ~ No time no blog (sorry about that).
I know I said I'll try to update you every month, but we all knew that I wouldn't be able to do that >_<

At the same time, I felt like it was boring of me to just tell you the same old same old.

School. Homework. Blah blah blahhhhhhh. The usual.

I want this blog to be interesting for other people to know my story (you know?). So in order to do so, I've decided to be (kinda) more open with my life! It'll be gradual, but it's still a step forward.

ANYways, since March, I've been around the internet (my links are in my bio).
You?

Even though this may seem like a one way conversation, I still want to let you know that I care. Despite me just being letters right now, I don't think a lot of people address that enough.
It's never too late or too early to tell someone.

OKAY. So, since March, I can say that a lot of things had happened! At the same time I don't want to smush everything into a LOOOONNNNNGGG blog post. So I'll probably split it into two.

~ Hence the odd title ~

At the end of March, or the start of April, I found out my uncle died...
The weird thing, is that I didn't cry. I just, don't know how to feel? It's hard to explain.

Don't get me wrong, I miss him.

I mean, 2 years before, me and my family went to visit China. Nervously, that was the first time I've been on a plane. Let alone, my first time going to China! D:

For a month, we all traveled to Hong Kong, Beijing, and Guangzhou together with my uncle. And that was the first time I've seen him for years. He was pretty cool, unlike most of my awkward relatives. We've had our laughs and stuff, I think it's because he works with teens half of the time for work.

Now, he's just gone.
I get to start thinking about all these questions.

What did he last eat?
What did he last say?
Was he actually happy with his life?

For a Cantonese family, or maybe for families in general, death is unspoken. Names are forbidden to be mentioned or talked about. That's probably one thing that bothers me. I can't even know how my aunt feels, or thinks!
That explains why most of my friends don't feel connected to their families in comparison to others. We're all bottled up in our own little worlds, and only talk when we need to. Those conversations rarely have much meaning though.

The way he passed away was even worse...
I won't say, but it'll not the way someone would want to say goodbye.
All I want is to know that things are okay sometimes. Despite talking alone behind glass walls.

Soon after we got the news, my mom flew out to China for 2 and a half weeks with my aunt and grandma. Leaving me and my brother to fend for ourselves. My dad was around, but he basically works 24/7. So we didn't get to see him much anyways.

The dark and quiet was nice.

In other news...

On April 21st, I had one of the most exciting days in a long time. The short film that I've been working with other students from my school, has been screened at Tribeca Teaches 2015 Screening! (Wow that's a mouthful to say, or type?).

The whole team got to skip school to go to the red carpet and watch other films of the Tribeca Teaches program. (Which sounds great because, school can be boring. At the same time, catching up with notes is a nightmare X__X).

Can you see the carpet?

Can you smell the red?
Such nervous.
Much awkward.

Our film's about a girl who faces her bully in high school that constantly tears her down emotionally and mentally. As the film plays out, you see how she copes with it. Eventually, you find out that the bully is herself. From self loathing to misinterpretations from others.

We chose this topic because not a lot of people talk about it, or is acknowledging it. It's kind of like a subject matter that most people try to shy away. From the small team I got to learn and spend time with for half a year, I can defiantly notice how this topic also hits home with us. We all put in ourselves into the film somehow, either from personal experience or knowledge that enhances the story line. Even for me, I think the topic is very close to my heart and mind.

This may not be the best film for amateur starters, but it's still something I'm really proud of taking part in. Others may or may not understand it 100%, at least we know what it means to us (in a way).

Oh! My mom got back from China that afternoon as well ~ Yay, the nagging saga continues!

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Speaking of famous people?
Is that a good segaway?
Probably not.

The day after the screening, was amazing! The Sorted Food guys were in New York City to launch their #LostandHungry tour. I don't know about you, but I'm SO EXCITED to see what they get up to.

After getting home, they announced on Twitter and Snapchat that they were going to do a meet up in Bryant Park the next day. Normally, I wouldn't be able to stay out late because of my parents. Although... they don't need to know... right?

I told them I had a badminton game that day X__X and I got home around 9pm. There was a good amount of people so that you can still have conversation with the boys, but it took quite some time getting pictures with all 4 of them.

Yea... that's my face!
I finally decided to show my face :P

I mean, if I want to put my work and my life out there. I want you to know me. There's plenty to come, don't worry. This is barely scratching the surface. I'm planning on starting up my YouTube channel by the end of this month, which is technically in a few days...

Beside the Dan and Phil radio recordings, I want my channel to be more than that. Since I love photography and film, I want YouTube to be my main starting platform to release my work.

I don't do it for (what some people might assume) money or fame. It's just a way for me to put the work I enjoy doing, out into the world. The worst thing is for someone to misinterpret this into something that isn't true.

BESIDES THAT, they were really nice! Excitement and energy was buzzing in the conversations about #LostandHungry.

** Vicky from the future: Since April, I met them again for the end of the #LostandHungry tour! That's for part 2 of this post though. **

That's pretty much for this post! I'll get through more of my April, May, June and July for the next one (part 2)
:)

Until then, bye ~

Mind Numbing Thoughts

Hey!

How's it been?

Crappy? Boring? Tiring? Stressful?

Yea, me too.

Do you sometimes think that we spend so much time living through the same routine, and that we should spend more time doing things that we enjoy?

I do.

I spend countless hours that I can never get back, doing schoolwork, studying, and so on. Whereas, I could be writing, exploring, crafting, and so much more. Sadly, I don't have time for it. This then leads me into a repetitive lifestyle, and leaves me dreading the next day.

But we shouldn't be living this life, if we're only going to waste time rolling our eyes at what the next day will bring (I know, I know - never use 'but' at the start of a sentence - but this isn't a formal essay or paper, it's my own thoughts and words).

It's VERY cheesy when people say that you should "live life to it's fullest."

Honestly, we can all admit that living life to it's fullest is hard when you have work, school, internal issues, and other problems that fate/life loves to throw at you.

As a pessimistic person and existentialist, I cannot fathom how many times I wanted to believe that something great would happen to me.

That sort of explains why I never "hope" or "wish" that things would happen.
For example, I never say "I wish you a happy birthday," or "I hope you'll have a great day."

I can't guarantee you a "happy" birthday, nor can I guarantee you a "great" day.
It's like that episode of "Drake & Josh."



Do you understand what I'm getting at?
Maybe?

:P

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Wow, I went into a dark tangent right there...

(I also don't like saying, "that was so deep." The way that "deep" is being used, is like how I feel when people say, "that was mad crazy.")

While I'm still talking about the dark abyss of life, let's jump into it anyways. I mean, we're already here.
Why not?

(I mean, figuratively...)

Remember Alfie's video, "10 Years Time"?

Well, this was my comment...

It's really cheesy, I know.

If you think about it, it's weird.
In 5/6 months, I'd be a junior in high school...
I'd be taking the SAT's, thinking of which college is best for me.
Then, I'd be a senior.

It's really over whelming.

Who knows what I'll do next week, next month, let alone 10 years...

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I want to leave a (slightly) lighter tone to this post.

(Although, I do want you to understand that I'm writing on this blog because I want others [you] to somewhat know and understand me. I won't go back into details, my reasons were in January post if you're curious).

:P

This kinda transitions into Zoe's book, "Girl Online" (which I'm sure you've heard about).

I finally got my hands on her book, and Hannah Hart's cookbook too! :D

I've only read the first chapter of Zoe's book, and there was a part in the beginning that really depicts why I started this blog.

I've also wrote a lot in my diaries, and felt the same.

I mainly started this blog, so that I could say that I wanted without feeling scared.

I want to do that with my YouTube channel too, and be able to show my face without fear or judgement. Not yet though, but soon.

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Wow, I'm always off track (sorry).

So!

What are you're plans for next week? Any spring break plans?

My mom's leaving for 3 weeks to visit her family and for my uncle's funeral.

~ I know... I don't seem to have any sense of a "lighter tone" to this post ~

Anyways, that means that my brother and I have to fend for ourselves while our dad's at work. Which means that I have to do most of the cooking, whilst he stays on his computer 24/7.

I might have badminton practice at school over the break, just like my mid-winter break.

~ SIGH ~

The season started last week, and I'm exhausted from all the games and practices.
Fun fun fun...
x__x

Do you have any favorite songs/artists at the moment?

Well, these are my favorites from Spotify...

1. "All of #OneSongAWeek" by Frank Hamilton
2. "Friday I'm in love" by The Cure
3. "Light's Out (Deluxe Edition)" by Ingrid Michaelson

That's pretty much that's going on in my life, how about you?
Comment down below on what's going on with you~

Until then, bye!

Valentines Day Fail

Hello!

I'm back again, are you sick of me yet? XD

Did anything interesting happen to you within the last time I updated my blog? If so, let me know in the comment section below :)

For me, it's always the same and boring routine.
Go to school. Eat. Sleep. Work.
~ And it repeats continuously ~

The only thing "fun" that happened to me, was on Valentines day.

OOOOOOOOOHHHH, juicy ;)
HA, not.

I don't know about you, but I find Valentines day pointless.
If you love someone, it should be all year round and not just on one day. I believe that Valentines day is just one way to target buyers and make money.

Anyways, on Valentines day, I had to go out in the morning for badminton practice at school.
Even though it was a Saturday, AND the beginning of our Mid-Winter break, that didn't give my coaches a excuse not to practice for the upcoming games.

I left around 11:30 AM to tag along with a few friends that wanted to go shopping at 12, so I just walked around to kill some time.
But of course, they were late by an hour and a half.
-_____-

I spent about a hour just walking around in the cold, freezing my fingers and toes off.

Now you would think...
"Vicky, why didn't you just go into a cafe or something to warm up?"

BELIEVE ME, I did!
I stayed at a Dunkin' Donuts for the last half hour before my friends arrived, but the previous hour, I found it too awkward for me to just sit there all alone. Plus, I barely had any money on me. So it would be even more awkward if I sat there, without buying something.

O___O     You know what I mean?

I love my friends, but they're NEVER ON TIME. That's one of my biggest pet peeves, along with people who chew their nails, when metal's scrapping each other, people who don't close their mouth when they chew-AGHH- okay, I'm going to stop.

By the time 2 (out of 3) of my friends got to our meet up spot, I couldn't feel my fingers and toes. It was even snowing!
Anyways, we started walking to SOHO, when our last friend called, saying that she was at our meet up spot.

~ Facepalm ~

While I was trying to figure out how to meet up, we realized that the main store that we wanted to shop at, was closed.

CLOSED.
As in packed up, moved out, and empty.

Inside my head, I was SCREAMING. I DID NOT JUST WASTE MY TIME, JUST FOR THIS TO HAPPEN.

We just ended up meeting up the our last friend, and walked to a Vietnamese restaurant in Chinatown. We actually go there often as a group, so it was nice to be in a familiar place.

At that point, we finally had the chance to defrost.

Even though the whole shopping idea was completely ruined, it's still nice to just sit down and talk with each other over food.

~ The aftermath ~

That's pretty much my whole February, hope it was worth your time :P
(If it wasn't, I won't blame you).

Haha, I know you hate me because you thought that my "Valentines Day Fail" was going to be more interesting.

Until next month, I'll talk to you later!

(Happy Lunar New Year, Mardi Gras/Pancake Day, or even just your break from school!)

Another Year

Hey!

I haven't spoken to you since last year, (yeah, I know, I'm rolling my eyes at that joke as well).
I can't believe that two months have passed so quickly, and as I predicted, I didn't update my blog during December.

How was your holiday?
Did you spend time with your family? Friends?

For me, I spent most of the time doing homework.
Yup.
I've got to say, that was EXTREMELY fun (not).

However, one thing that was AMAZING, was that I went ice skating with my friends in Central Park!
It was pretty surreal for me.

~ The view from above ~

It's kind of weird because, I've always watched movies and shows about couples skating in Central Park at night. Or skating together, and resting while sipping hot chocolate. And out of all those "perfect" images of a "perfect" winters night, I never imagined myself skating in Central Park.

I mean, I have ice skated before. I've skated in Bryant Park and Rockefeller Center, but those were the only times I've ice skated. And those memories were years ago. Now that I look back, since December, I haven't skated in about 6 years! I had roller skates, but it never felt the same. Ya know? (idk)...

Even though I didn't have an ice skating experience like the movies, it was really fun. There was hot chocolate and food though, so that was a good enough for me.
Two out of the many cups of hot chocolate :)

I actually dragged my friends to go ice skating with me, because the ice skating rink in Central Park was holding an event that I wanted to go to FOR YEARS.

I've listened to a specific radio station (106.7 Lite FM) ever since I was a little kid, and they held an ice skating event in Central Park for a few years. At the event, you could meet the radio personalities/presenters, get free food & drinks, (and of course) ice skate.

I would listen to the station at night, when it was presented by Delilah. She would sooth me to sleep sometimes, because she had such a calming voice. The station would play romantic songs that I've grown to love. I think that's why I'm such a different person when compared to other people. I've listened to A LOT of 80's songs while I grew up (haha).

I was SO determined to meet Delilah, that I dragged my friends to the rink at 10 in the morning, and we waited until 3 in the afternoon.

YEA, 5 hours of skating, sitting, talking, eating, and drinking.
While being in different high schools, it was nice to spend time together.

Eventually, I got to meet Delilah! It was AMAZING, to meet someone that brought me up when I was feeling down. My heart was beating really fast and my hands were trembling, but I felt so happy after meeting her. I even got her autograph!
I think I might go back this year :)

~ I mean how CUTE is that!? I think it's the iguana from Tangled, dressed in a Christmas outfit ~



I think this is the bridge from one of the "Home Alone" movies (right? Idk, maybe). This reminds me of "Eloise at the plaza" and "Eloise at Christmastime," the hotel that they filmed the movie in, is actually nearby to where I took this picture.
I remember watching these movies during the holidays :) Now, I do a small tradition with myself. Where, I would watch all my favorite Christmas movies before the year ended. "Polar Express" and "How the Grinch Stole Christmas!" are my favorites as well.

ANYWAYS, I don't know if I bored you or anything, but I'll continue with whatever I'm trying to talk about.

This is my overview of 2014 (feel free to comment yours down below!)

I've learned who my true friends really were, the people that will be by my side through the thick and thin.
I've learned to accept that everyone and everything will change in their own ways, whether I like it or not.
I've made many (and I mean many) mistakes, but I've learned many things from them.

I've worried a lot about so many things.
I've stressed out over a lot of things.
I've cried over a lot of things.
I've been numb over a lot of things.

There's been a lot of hard days.

I can't deny that. You might feel the same, you might not.
Listening to music and writing, has probably been the only good thing going on in my life so far.
Oh! And food! I will never forget that.

~ Haha, that reminds me of the episode of Friends, where someone ate Ross's sandwich ~



I don't know if anyone will actually read my posts, or if anyone knows my name.
But if you do, I want to thank you.

(I know that sounds really cheesy, but...)

It's nice to know that someone is taking time out of their day, to get to know me. Even though it's just me, blabbing on about pointless things that's going on in my life. I'm not here to complain or for you to feel sorry for me, that's one thing that I want you to know.
I just want to be myself somewhere, somehow, and to (maybe) relate to you.

There are about 7 billion people in the world, and I know that there are other people who feel the same way I do (Ugh, I hate how this sounds like a #firstworldproblem [let me cringe, I actually used a hash tag, barf]).


Although, there has been a few times where things haven't been so crappy.

1. I met Alfie Deyes
2. I met Delilah
3. I finished and published my Luke Hemmings fanfic !!!! I've also been working on fanfics about the rest of 5SOS and YouTubers (look out for those in the future).
4. Food
6. Tumblr
7. YouTubers
8. FOOD

This year, I know that there will be more stress and work.
However, I'm looking forward in working on other things that make me happy.

I don't know if that's for sure, but we'll both find out won't we?


Okay, I think I'm done waffling on about whatever I'm trying to say.

I'll TRY to update once a month (HA! Yeah, I laughed too).

Until then, bye!

P.S. Sorry if you want to behead me because I kept saying "I've," I know, I'm cringing too.

The-Month-That's-Holding-Us-Back-From-Christmas

Hey!

It's the end of November!
Or from the title above, "The-Month-That's-Holding-Us-Back-From-Christmas."
Haha, it's extremely long but true (or is that just me?).

How was your month?
Are you excited for the holidays?

I know I am!!!!!!

For me, November hasn't been as interesting as October (If you want to know about my October, read my "Octoberoll" posts).
However, there were some highlights that I enjoyed.

I'll just list them right now, so you get an idea.

1. I did some volunteer work for Thanksgiving
2. I took a stroll through Central Park
3. I went to watch "The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time" on Broadway
4. I spent some time with my best friend

So, first up.
Volunteer work!

Last year, I took part in the 92|Y "Teensgiving" volunteering event. Within the event, there's sub-groups that you'll be assigned to. Last year, I had spent the day in the building making bracelets out of yarn for children in hospitals.
This year, I was spent my day writing letters to veterans.
Actually, verteran* for me.
Yup, I spend a few hours writing a letter to one person.

Like what everyone says, "quality over quantity."
So, I'd rather spend meaningful time and effort over one letter. Than write some meaningless words to someone that's dedicating their life for us.

Like last year, they had this giant board for everyone to sign their names on.
Last year, I didn't sign it :\
But this year, I did!

Can you find me?

" Another soul left to fade ~ So come find me ~ "

After a few hours of volunteer work, we were dismissed from the building.

The 92|Y wasn't far from central park. So I decided to walk around in Central Park.
And of course, I took pictures.
Despite, it being a cold and grey day.

After the walk, I went to the Michael's (craft's store) nearby.
I just love walking around stores, looking around. It's fun to get lost at just looking at things.
So, going there was fun. Especially, since I like looking for and using new art supplies.
They had Christmas things, so that was EVEN BETTER.

A few weeks later...

I went to see "The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time," at the Barrymore Theatre.
The play's based on the book (of which I read) by Mark Haddon, and it was (in my opinion) a 10 / 10. It was an odd, and yet interesting novel. There were parts of the book, that were really insightful and beautifully written.

The book's about a boy, Christopher, who has aspergers. He sets out on an investigation, when his neighbors dog is murdered. The aspiring Sherlock Holmes discovers the truth about his family, on this journey of self-discovery and of course, the search for the mysterious dog killer.  

(I blurred out a line, due to privacy reasons).

This was a class trip, so I'm very grateful that the theatre allowed us to come and watch for free. Since we all read the book as a class, it was nice to understand the plot of the story beforehand.

Here are some pictures of the Barrymore Theatre...

A lot of chandeliers and elegant lights.

I'm pretty sure you're never to take pictures of a show, but it's our little secret. 

My view of the stage before the show...

Intermission...

Sneaky parts of the show... shhh...

Overall, the play was AMAZING.

The music was absolutely BEAUTIFUL, the set and lighting made the experience even better. As you can see, the stage is like a cube made of grids. Using these grids, images were projected onto the set. Which brought the story to life, without the excessive use of props. It was also cool, how there were secret compartments along the walls and floors. For example, in the picture above, steps came out of the wall. And at one point, the floors were lowered for a scene in Paddington Station.

One of the actors (Christopher's father, the one in green or the middle of the picture) was even at the exit after the show :D
My teacher praised his performance, and was about to take a group picture with a few of us. But he left to return backstage :\                     
The view from stage level.

Since the theatre was near Times Square, the view was pretty amazing.
If you were to come to New York City, Times Square is more beautiful at night or sunset.

Finally, the end of my November eased out from stress.
Exams were over, and I got my work done.

So I was finally able to get out of the house, and spent some time with my best friend.

We went to a small diner for breakfast, and the food was DELICIOUS.

Are you a coffee or tea person?
Well, I'm a tea person.

Mmmm... French toast :D

Over easy eggs, bacon, and home fries :)

Yeah, I know.
The food doesn't look as good as those on Tumblr and Instagram. But I feel like it's better than adding a bunch of filters and effects.
(Plus, my phone's camera quality isn't that good).
It was Black Friday after all, so we planned on going to SOHO to shop.

But..... It was too cold. So we decided to hang out at one of our favorite spots.
Mee Cafe.
A bubble tea shop.
If you're interested in going there, it's at 26 Rutgers Street, New York, NY  10002.

We warmed up there, and spent a few hours talking, drinking, listening to music, and playing cards.

I got something different from what I usually get (passion fruit green tea with lychee jelly). I felt adventurous, and got a pomegranate green tea with lychee jelly.
 
Everything they make there (food and drinks) is REALLY GOOD, and cheap as well. So I wasn't disappointed :)

Haha, we had to buy a set of cards. And they only had ones with U.S. military heroes on there (>_<).





We then went food shopping, and eventually went home.
It might sound bland, but it's nice to do something relaxing.
(It sort of reminds me of "Friends," and how everyone just went to Central Perk to hangout).


The weather was also a nice change. Instead of the cold, grey, and rainy days. There were a few times that the sky was blue and sunny.

** (Oh! That reminds me, it snowed in NYC for the first time on 11/26 around 12:40 PM :D But I was stuck in class. Plus, it was mixed with rain, so it was more like cold and wet slush. It then snowed again on Thanksgiving morning, around 11:30 AM). **

I've also been loving these albums...

1. "1989" by Taylor Swift

2. "Goodbye Lullaby" by Avril Lavigne (It's one of those albums you rediscover from your old songs, and fall in love with again).

3. "Atlas: Year One" by Sleeping At Last
I've discovered them through Spotify, and I ABSOLUTELY LOVE their music. Their songs are very calming and beautiful. So I HIGHLY recommend them, if you're into that genre of music.

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BY THE WAY.
DO YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED LAST YEAR, TO THIS DAY?!?!

(I hope you do...)

Haha.
It's the one year anniversary, of watching Dan getting his legs waxed by Louise.
(If you don't know who they are, click their names. And if you want to re-watch it, and piss your pants from laughing, click --> KeepYourVaginasToYourselves).

Yup!
That's pretty much the highlights of my November.
I hope you liked this post (and wasn't too bored).

Hopefully, in December (wow, I can't believe that's tomorrow) I'll write new updates :)
*Cough* My birthday's also coming up *Cough*
I'll try my best to update my blog.
 
Until then, bye!